Saturday, January 09, 2010

The year that was..

I learnt diplomacy last year. Here's an example. If you ask me, how was the year that went by, my reply would be - Good and bad..in bits and parts. :) The 2008 me would've grinned and said 'quite awesome!'. Like the child  who burns his hand, yells his lungs out and then forgets it all as soon as he sees a bar of chocolate, I would forget the lows and stick to my reply. The 2009 me is not an improved version at all. Life is still all hunky dory and I still think that there is a silver lining behind the darkest of clouds. But yes, I learned diplomacy. So the year was a mixed bag of sorts.

So I take stock now. A checklist of things that I was supposed to do. Things I wanted to do. Things I shouldn't have done.

Studied - Hell no! It took me an MBA and an obscene amount of money to realise that I can study no more. Just wrote my last paper and swore to myself to never touch those darned things again! I can read but not study, and there is an ocean of difference between the two. Learned nothing from my post grad degree and I do hope my current employer doesn't come across this blog of mine. :)

Got a job. My justification for the obscene amount of money I mentioned before. :) Its a blessing to get exactly what you want and I am blessed.

Read books - Sadly no. Don't judge me. I love books. This year just whizzed by and I have read a measly few. But am back with new resolve. Got a long list to finish.

Travelled - A hell lot! New cities and old ones too. With friends, with family..for work, for fun...for no reason.   Chennai, Bangalore, Pondicherry, Kolkata, Bombay, Karwar, Sikkim, Darjeeling, Pune...phew! Loved every bit of it. Something about new places..their idiosyncrasies..their eccentricities..the people..I could really travel for a living! :)

Friends - Met some and lost some. Some law of balancing the good with the bad I presume. Met some awesome people. I mean really, can't remember what life was like before knowing them. :) (Here's to you - Sunshine and Saantu!). The ones I knew before came closer. The ones who had drifted away drifted right back in. Some people went away, out of reach. Such is life. Black, white and grey.

Love - Happens year after year. I've realised I don't just like people (that is, when I do like them), I fall in love with them. Some particular trait, the way they care, the way they are. Can be anything. So yes, I fall in love again and again. I am emotional and I get involved. I am pretty hopeless. :) I like it.

Danced till there was music. Danced like no one's watching.

Became a recluse. Not intentional, but somehow got comfortable in my corner. Its a good thing, to be able to spend a day alone and still come out of it smiling.

Flirted/Dated - Yes yes :). Good for health, they say. ;)

Cried - Like a baby. Over lost hopes. Over mushy movies. Over the absence of close ones. Over goodbyes. In fights where anger comes out as tears. In silence when eyes talk. Over nothing. I just cry easy.

Tried getting over my fear of height and water. Been years, still struggling. Floated around in the middle of the ocean (wearing a lifejacket), if that counts for anything. But the heights and depths of it still gets to me.

Stayed fit - No no and no! :( Being a Bong so does not help the cause. We Bongs get high on food. Good food and lack of physical exercise. Not good. Not good at all! I need to go on a war footing to cure this.

Survived on music. Like air and water. The first thing I did when I woke up and the last thing when I slept off. Listen to music. So, thank you to the likes of Pearl Jams and the odd Pitbulls for replacing the silence with rhythm. :)

Wrote - Yes, more than often. Sometimes on blogs. Sometimes to myself. On tissue papers. In notebooks.

Grew up - The age bit, inevitable! The mind bit, avoidable! :) I'll focus on the latter. Learned a li'l, grew up a li'l. Threw tantrums like a child, but still managed the occasional grown up's view of the world. That view is just shortlived though. Coz like Bryan Adams croons, I wanna be young for the rest of my life! ;)

Like I said, its been a good and a bad year..in bits and parts. I will choose to remember the times that I smiled. I will hope to learn from the mistakes I made. I will revel in the happiness and I will forget the tears. For those I hurt, I am sorry. For those I loved, I am all mush. Live with it. For those I yelled at, it was just a moment. Never meant it. For those I forgot, call me and tell me I'm a jerk. For those I call friends, thank you. For everything.

12 comments:

Sushri said...

Very well written! Loved your style of writing about the "verbs", esp. the "wrote", "Loved", "Cried' bit..very honestly written :)

Tamanna Mishra said...

Awwww huggggs Suravi! I sooooo loved this post! Totally awesome, I loved all of it. And realised there's so much I could have said for myself, at some point or the other.

Truly, truly awesome. Please write more often.

Sur said...

@Tams & Shalu - :) :)

yamini said...

hey u must bcom a writer nd plz 1st buk autograph k sath me ko bhi gift kar dena

Sur said...

@Yamini - Sure thing kiddo. The advice I'll think over. Muah! :)

sonali said...

WOW!!! u summarized the whole year so beautifully :) i totally loved it and i love you tooo..muah muah muah

Sur said...

@Shonu - Love ya..muah!

Richa said...

Good one sweetheart! :)

Soumaya said...

:-) :-) its very diffcult even to choose any special part from this wonderful piece, a complete one ... but still some of my favourite portions are like these :-

'learnt diplomacy' No comments, I can see u learning the same :-)

'Travelled' Awesome awesome keep it up....

'I am emotional and I get involved. I am pretty hopeless. :)umeed (I hope this is the right translation of HOPE in english)pe duniya tikka hua hai dear :-)

Danced like no one's watching....ur on the right track this the best way to enjoy dance...and who else than me say this better :-)

loved ur to saty fit :-):- )"Flirted/Dated - Yes yes :). Good for health, they say. ;)"

Wrote :- Do write more its really wonderful for readers like me...

Sur said...

@Motu - Thanks baby :)
@Shomu - The long comment I like! :)

Anuj said...

Heya...Nice Blog Indeed...I liked each part of it:)....
keeping writing re:)

tanmoy said...

good one dear... really nice and touching...