Saturday, December 19, 2009

Procrastination, my nemesis

Procrastination. My biggest enemy. My most well-disguised flaw. Or so I'd like to believe. Probably it is the first thing people notice about me. Maybe not. What people think is not important here. The problem is that I procrastinate. Everyday. Over small things. Over important things. It is not about work. Even for calling up that very dear friend of mine whom I've been thinking of everyday, I keep delaying it. My white board stares at me every morning. If it had a face, it would be smirking. A long list awaits, that needs to be struck off that board. But I procrastinate. There's work to be done, dear ones to be called, credit card bills to be paid, tickets to be booked...a whole future to be planned! And I sit in my bed, comfy in my comforter thinking random thoughts, writing such unnecessary blogs. It is not an unhappy state of being. But it is a pretty ugly albatross around my neck. New year brings new resolve. A willingness to turn a new leaf. But that's a good 10 days away. And here I go again! I procrastinate! :)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Perfect!

Life's perfect! It won't last long, the golden streak. So I thought I'll pen it all down, before the clouds emerge and I go hunting for the silver lining. The other day was telling a dear friend that I completely believe that fairy godmothers exist. At my age, such kiddish beliefs might sound funny but I do. I so do! So when we really really wish for something and cross our fingers and close our eyes and repeat in our minds that this is the last thing that I will ever ask for, it does come true. Yes, wishes are being fulfilled at an alarming rate. And there's still more to look forward to. :)

Its not cold enough in Delhi. Or am just all warm inside. Being loved is a good feeling. An awesome feeling. And I don't mean the sappy mushy form of lowe. But the kind that comes from friends. Friends without whom this post is pointless. All the happiness is pointless. They love me like a mother and scold me like a brother. They spoil me rotten, listen to the endless amount of nonsensical trivia I dish out, hate my guts and still put up with me without a grudge. Far or near, they make my days sunny. My world, one big happy family.

Why is it all so perfect?! Because it is! Friends got the jobs they wanted. I got what I wanted. A dear one walked back into my life. Dada is back in the country, even though its for a precious few days. The entire family, four of us, we are finally together after ages! Chirstmas with family, new year with friends. Bottle of Bailleys. Box of liquor chocolates. A small island tucked away in a remote corner. It all adds up to a very happy feeling.

I sleep with this thought now. Bring on the dark clouds and the rough weather, I say. I got sunshine on my side :)